Most of my goals begin and end at the start.
I just stand there and stare at the finish with no concept of the hurdles that come in between. In my head, if I continue on the straight line perfectly without deviating, I’ll quickly and easily cross the line. After that line, everything will be better. After that line, my life will be the after side of an Instagram transformation.
The problem is that life isn’t a straight line. As soon as you start, you’ll likely to run into a hurdle (if you don’t, congratulations, you’re a wizard). For me, a hurdle is more of an unbreakable brick wall. Rather than trying to break it, I head back to the start and try to find a new straight line.
As of January 1, I was standing at the wall that’s kept me in this cycle for so long. I had plans, resolutions and goals to complete but a wall kept me from seeing the hurdles. That’s the wall I’m working on, the one that tells me I can’t.
Basically, I’m trying. I’m setting goals with no finish in mind. I’m working to be more active and more creative. What does that mean? Abstractly it means moving in some way, practicing creativity in some way and trying to find what works.
Literally, what it means this week is some modified and shortened moving with the Pre-Training Guide from Kayla Itsines’ Bikini Body Guide, some Yoga with Adriene and, if the ground ever dries, some disc golf with Adam. It also means some brush calligraphy worksheets, some time spent with my 2016 Project Life album and writing this. However, it only means those things if I want it to. I can change the meaning at any time as long as I’m still trying.
So this is me trying, as it happens, rather than after the fact in some mythical land where everything is better and all my Instagrams are perfect.